Is my logic logical?

I have a new fear which I have not overcome.

I think this will take time and effort.

I'm worried that family and friends get the wrong idea that my motive is to make money from them so i tried to be low profile. 

There is nothing wrong for them to have such thoughts. Because they may have been scared by people whose motives are, well, simply to make money from them and run away. 

I had that kind of experience too. For example, that insurance that I bought. Before I committed myself, she was sOOo friendly and helpful until I signed that paper. 

And that direct sales membership which i signed up because i wanted to learn how to have better health etc. As soon as i committed, my previous upline disappeared. And it was a miracle is that I actually obediently purchased health products for 3 years without supervision. 

Despite the above, I don't close my hearts. I don't know whether to call myself a fool or a kind hearted person  :P I just think that not everyone is like that. 不能一竹竿打翻一船人.I believe that there are good people out there who genuinely want to share good things with me. By giving them a chance, i also give myself an opportunity. Who knows, this might be the thing i need :) 

I've a friend who is doing part time direct selling. She shares information she learns during her classes, sends me pamphlets of monthly promotion, asks me to attend talks regarding health etc. She does the same for others. Then one day, a colleague told me that she feels that my friend just wants to make money out of her. I was stunned! I truly appreciate my friend's gesture because without doing anything, I got to enjoy the fruits of her hard work!. And I just think that it's appropriate that I pay for such "services " because how else would I find out about the good things if it weren't for her who has invested time, money and effort to discover and test them? And only by "paying" her, she would have an income to sustain her act.  And only by giving them a try would i know if the items are worthy of my money or not. 

Haha, i don't know. I have always been a weird one. I don't even know if my logics are logical to you or not haha...

What do u think?

Hi to My fears

Do you have any fears?

I have. And a lot.

I used to let these fears stop me from progressing. Simply because I'm afraid. I did realise that I can't live like this forever but I was too afraid to do things that i was afraid of.

My parents saw this weakness. They pushed us to do things we feared of. I didn't like it. I wondered why my parents were not like other parents who let their kids just be kids. I wondered if I were adopted. I wondered if they loved me. I wondered and wondered but there was no answer.

At first, life was tough for me. I had to deal with my fears, find ways to overcome them. I was in a state of uneasiness. I wanted to give up and run away and hide. I went to look for my friend "little willow tree" and told her about my problems. She listened to my sorrows quietly.

Although i feared, I continued to do something. Strangely, once i did one thing, one fear disappeared! Then I dealt with one more fear and one more disappeared! Then i realised, I actually could 'delete' my fears if I accept my flaws, face them and conquer them! Fears are like a never ending thingie. New ones will develop as time passes by. yes, God wants us to continually improve ourselves haha...

Recently, i develop a new fear. 

Fear of stepping out of the comfort zone.

Actually, it isn't so comfortable la. It's just stable.

I gave reasons and tried to procrastinate. I thought by doing so, I could avoid facing it. The problem with procrastination is that, when time is running out, you will have to pay the price!

Psk, it's finally happening. It feels unreal. Jane and my little space is now being 'created'.

I do admit, I was afraid at the beginning but now, i kinda look forward to it. 

It's a one way street. There is no turning back. I will just have to try my best to create history. Like Dr. Choong said in his GST seminar last week - You either create history or become history. It's true. We only live once this life, I might as well create history.

Yes, there are countless of people who question about our moves.

I must agree with them. 

Why is there a need to make life so busy when life is already stable?

Why is there a need to take such risk and jeopardize own future? 

Yes, I have the same doubts as them too. I guess I could either be doubtful for the rest of my life or try my very best to find answers to clear my doubts.

For now, let me just say, I was amazed at how little things i knew before, even though I've obtained a uni degree, obtained so many qualifications and knowledge in my career!  It's a shame i know. 

How foolish i was before to think that I knew how the world operated. I actually only knew how MY world operated *cover face*

I'm glad I have taken this path to an unknown future. It sure is not a breezy walk in the park, but whether it's a success story or not, at least I've given it a go. At least I have learned something different.

"If you want to conquer fear, don't sit at home and think about it. Go out and get busy" - Dale Carnegie

Special Day!!

First of all, let's cheer out loud! 

For it's that special time of the year again!

Nope, it's not because there are crazy online sales!

And nope, it's not because a lot of couples get married on this day.

It's simply because it's the birthday of a pair of adorable identical twins who, when standing together, looks exactly like 11 hahaha...

Years ago, Jane and I were playing in a netball competition against our colleagues from Sabah. She was the goal keeper while i was the goal shooter. We effortless (ok, i exaggerated. actually with little effort la hahaha) got ourselves 13 goals against 0. The opponents looked embarrassed so we decided to give them 1 goal. Jane had to pretend she jumped short and couldn't block the shooter from shooting hahaha.. from then onwards, Jane and I became famous in the Land of Borneo and  are known as the Twin Towers.

I feel lucky to have a friend, a soul mate as soon as we were conceived. Am sure Jane feels the same way too because her life would be soOOooo dull without my existence for sure!

Thank you to my family and friends who sent us birthday wishes through all kind of means. 

And thank you to those who took precious time out from their busy lives to take me out for meals. 

And of course my parents, who took me to nice dinner on 11/11. Too bad I forgot to take a pictures with them T___T

Oh, i just remembered that, i still have birthday cake in the fridge. I better clear it because the moulds get to it. 

Thank you once again for celebrating with me! Big hugs & kisses to u all!

forgot to take pic with my parents & brothers T__T

下定决心！

今天我們不小心下了戰書，3個月後驗收  ╮(╯▽╰)╭  

哈哈，不過戰書怎麼來的呀？

最近大家一直揪來揪去。說好要帶運動服，下班後去公園健身的，結果每一天都有人說忘了帶。為了大家的健康著想 （其實是避免大家藉口多多)，有人就提議說來個比賽怎麼樣。

比就比呀 有什麼好怕！

其實還蠻後悔接戰書的，因為我跟美食對抗多年，每次都輸到落花流水~ 哈哈哈哈

午餐時間，大家一起量體重，體內脂肪，BMI，body age 等。

三個月後，最沒進步的人請吃。哈哈，減了又吃回去，到底這個比賽的意義是什麼呀？

對我來說，這個不是跟美食對抗或與運動做朋友的考驗，而是考考自己到底有多自律，有多堅定！ *握拳*

昨晚開始回到gym。最後一次去大概是3個月前吧。

久違了！

運動後的感覺真好。身體的每個細胞好像都活過來了！

我決定，不管自己多忙都一定一定要播時間出來運動!

I'm serious about it! *再次握拳*

Unique profile pictures

Before there were stickers for digital photos,  decorations (?) for pictures were created by one's powerful mind. 

Yeah, i gotta say, the pre-generation z people may seem less privilege without high tech gadgets but looking from another angle, their brains are efficiently and effectively utilised ;P

Jane bought these really nice handpainted paintings from a street artist near Musée d'Orsay and excitedly went home and wanted to make her very own unique FB profile picture with them. 

Unique i heard! Of course being a nice sister, i decided to lend her some helping hands. 

 Take 1

Take 2

I don't know why she didn't wanna use any of these as her FB profile picture. Esp this really cute one: 

The Best shot! haha

真的假的？哈哈

中午和朋友去吃午餐。
还没坐下来就先到摊位去点糕点。正当我在夹食物时，饮料阿姨过来问我要喝啥。
饮料送来时，只见饮料阿姨手里的单子写着“美女”。
哎哟哟~ 我难为情咧 哈哈

不过挺过瘾的 哈哈~

她不会骗我吧？

Yy's adventure in Taipei

It was summer holiday in France. My sister decided to send little YY to school in Taipei. 

Lucky YY for being able to "study overseas" at such young age! Haha~ 

My nephew is now 2.5 yo. When we con-call,  he talks but we can't understand. We thought he is still baby talking. Then one day we realised that he was actually speaking FRENCH! >.<

The only French words i could speak are bonjour, c'est super, c'est la vie... yeah, u see the problem haha

My sister and brother-in-law want him to learn more Chinese vocabs so they thought, why not spend one month in Taipei since there are a variety of programs to choose from. So my sister enrolled him into a summer school.

We all flew to Taipei to spend some time with them.  It's definitely nearer and cheaper to fly to Taipei than to Paris haha...  YY has grown really tall! He is still adorable. Kinda miss him now that i am writing this.

YY loves bus. Whenever he sees bus, he would point at one and says BUS. We even purposely took a bus somewhere just to fulfil his dreams. He was excited and very alert the whole time. He watched the moving items without blinking. That's how concentrate he was haha~ 

And it's amazing how one thing can stuck in one child's mind. No wonder ppl say, kids are like sponges. They see, they learn. Oh and one more, they remember. One morning after breakfast, my sister walked him to school while mum and I walked back to our hotel. They witnessed an accident where a bus hit a motorcyclist. To avoid my nephew from looking at the bloody scene, my sister quickly led him away. At night before he slept, he told my sister about the incident. My sister was shocked that he remembered! 

He said:

"Bus. Boom. Pipu pipu"

Mannnn.. i should learn from little YY. 

His story is short and straight to the point. 4 words to tell a story to be exact! Save time, save breath! 

Now I am ashamed. My posts are usually more than 100 words 🙈🙈

         Yy's adventure in Taipei