my determination

那天終於有機會去不羅嗦逛。其實很久很久以前就在網絡上發現了這間店。一直很想去，但每次去到台北都來去匆匆。而且這間店也不容易去。它隱藏在一 條鬧區的冷區...

那天晚上，天氣很冷，風也超強的。我們決定無論如何，一定要到不羅嗦大賣場報到！哈~ 人的毅力很惊人。當你下定決心時，再困難都不會是阻力。幸好這種毅志力是用在好的地方。要是用在不好的地方，這種力量就會讓你墮落再墮落.... 就像服用panadol一樣。如果照著指示服用就能止痛的作用，但如果亂服用，就能自殺的道理一樣！

我記得那晚真的不是外出的好天氣。這種天氣，在室內和朋友相聚喝杯熱拿鐵吃個小蛋糕會比較溫暖。所以我說毅力很惊人，在這樣的時候，我們竟然在外頭！風雨無阻哦。我們乘捷運到最靠近的捷運站，然後步行到不羅嗦。因為不是很確定地點，感覺好像永遠都到不了目的地。

從人山人海到沒有人煙的地方，我們開始懷疑自己是不是走錯路了。雖然心裡那麼想，但還是繼續前進。很慶幸我們有這種打破沙鍋'找'到底的精神，因為我們根本就沒有迷路！當我們看見不羅嗦的招牌在眼前時，我們忘了自己有多冷，腿有多酸，口有多渴，頭髮有多亂！之前的困難都是值得的！

一進到不羅嗦賣場，整個人活過來了！琳瑯滿路的商品讓我超興奮的！我們在地下室逛到打烊時間。哈哈~女生就是那麽爱逛！

這是我一部份的戰利品！

其實一個人的心態真的能決定他的人生。要不是我們堅持走下去，就不會成功找到目的地了。 唯有堅持向前走才能曉得自己有否走錯路！

人生的過程原本就不可能是天天風調雨順的。如果每每遇到困境就往後退，那我想我永遠都不會有什麼成就的，最終就只能在一旁的角落哀怨自己有多不幸。

其實不幸的不是你的人生，而是你自己自我放棄。放棄真的很容易! 有位朋友問說，大家都說放棄很容易，那為何很多人就是沒辦法放棄煩惱呢？然後他自己說不放棄煩惱也是一種放棄，因為他放棄了快樂自在的生活。很妙的回答！

我想，只要有顆堅定的心，天下根本没有什麽困難的事！原来這就是“天下無難事，只怕有心人”的真正含義！啊，怎麽那多年後才真的懂了？ @_@

哈～ 遲來的領悟好過永遠不懂啦，你說對不對？*自我安慰*

別認命! 這樣就能運命喔!

My special drink

Felt so full after lunch.... 

Made myself a glass of rose vinegar to drink. 

Loved the taste ....  felt soOooo romantic....! It was like I were in a garden full of roses! That is, if i had my eyes closed la..... Because the sight of files and paper all over my table is not romantic at all ahahhaha...

Excuse me for a moment, I wanna go back to my secret garden... 

Wow,  I can see Eiffel Tower! 

玫瑰花醋 : 可調經補血、養顏美容、預防內分泌失調、 腰酸背痛、便秘、抗風濕癌消炎效果(***生理期間及孕婦慎用***)。

KingKong Jenn

I met up with a friend whom I haven't seen for a while. 

We went shopping and ended up buying shoes of the same design... However, my purchase is more value for money... Why? Because for the same amount of money, I got 'more'! If the shoes are of the same design and they cost the same, how did i end up getting more? U see, her shoe size is 50% smaller than mine, so indirectly, she is paying 50% more... Still not clear? Okie, let me try to explain in more detail ~ because my shoes are bigger and technically, they would take more materials than hers to produce, which means the cost of making my shoes are higher, however, I didn't have to pay more.. Still confused? Well,  too bad... I tried my best... haha.. 

Shopping is a really good exercise.... All the walking really makes people tired! Also, all the sales really pump up your heart rate too! haha.. but it's not so good news for your purse... but looking from another angle, it's a good way to practise your self-control.

After a lot of walking & talking,  we went for bubble tea which we had to Q up for more than 30 mins! Well, that was OK because when you are being  accompanied by good  friend, you really don't mind wasting precious time just to get a drink to kill your thirst..... I had 北海道奶茶 which i thought was alright.... To me, it kinda tasted like caramel macchiato at Starbucks...

My friend told me she thought I look fatter. HA! she is right, I AM INDEED fatter! I'm not sad or angry or felt offended by what she said.... because I KNOW i am a king kong now... No point being in denial.. Because the truth is the truth. No matter how you try to hypnotize yourself and pretend that you are not what you are, the truth still exists...  

I am totally responsible for what happens. Although I strongly feels that my mum has to take part of the responsibility because she is the one who makes lots of yummy food which i find difficult to resist! OK, my weak will power is to be blamed.... But if i don't consume all the food, it would be sin to waste them... ! 

Who wouldn't if your one meal looks like this  

Awww.. am hungry just by looking at them~~~~~~

From afar....

Two yrs ago, I spent a lot of effort arranging a nice Cambodian tour for myself and a group of friends. The local tour guide I communicated with was quite good in his job. Whatever I asked for, he gave me detailed replies. Even for those I didn't ask for, he also provided.. Oooo, I'd a good feeling about this trip! Oh YEAH!

Unfortunately,  I didn't get to enjoy the fruits of my hard work in the end.... I had to stay back because there was more important task to deal with at home back then.... Yeah,  I'm a very responsible person.... and I KNOW IT! ;P

When my friends returned from Siem Reap (which reminds me, some of my friends said they bought me souvenirs but they never pass them to me Hmmmm...), the tour guide wrote to me to say thank you~~ and hope to see me in person next time... Oooo, nice of him to say that. He sure knows how to do business - that's what I thought at that time.... 

Two years has come and gone.... Another group of friends were going to Cambodia for holiday...  That kinda reminded me about my long outstanding Cambodian trip!  Don't despair, I will definitely make it ONE DAY! that's positive thinking! haha... Anyway, I remembered this tour guide whom I liaised with 2 yrs ago and  recommended  him to my friends.. I know I have never personally used his service before, so how could i give my recommendation? Well, he did give good customer services when I liaised with him and my friends came back with fond memories.. so i guess that's pretty good testimonials....  Turns out, this group of friends of mine also had a lot of fun in Cambodia too! 

When i met up with my friend, he said he has a surprise for me.. A surprise? I hope it isn't some kind of fried spiders or unknown insects from Cambodia... but the word 'suprise' sounds so mysterious! Hope it's something good....

He then passed to me a really nice bag.. wow, it's really cute! The bag is made from vine. He said there is more surprises in it.. so i quickly opened the bag and found a really nice scarf! Guess what? It's a gift from the Cambodian tour guide. After 2 yrs, he still remembers me? wow! My friend said he actually went to search for a gift in the night market. That's very touching *sniff sniff~~

Nice gift box!

This time, it's my turn to write a thank you note to him.. He told me that both the bag and the scarf are handmade and that the scarf is silk.  It's called a krama. I googled and learned that a krama is actually a traditional Cambodian garment to carry children, to cover the face, and for decorative purposes.  Wow, looks like it's a multifunction piece of garment!

I don't have children.. so Friends, if you want to borrow my high class silk scarf to carry your babies, please let me know.. i can consider renting it out BUT  for a fee...  I know I shouldn't charge  because friends should avoid money matters.. but u see, am trying to save some money to realise my long outstanding trip to Cambodia, so....

I know all my friends are generous and kind people, they sure don't mind to sponsor me , right?

Thank you in advance~~~ am so lucky to have friends like you all *big kiss~~ :3

Goodbye~~

兩個星期前，去阿姨家玩。看見姨丈。他累了，在房裡休息。

上個星期，姨丈被送入醫院了。

前天，姨丈走了。留下的只有回憶和思念他的家人。

三個星期內，看見人生的轉變。從活著，到被病魔折磨，到離開人世間。

那晚，我在醫院的癌症病房陪著。我表弟問我 "姐，你看斜對面的那個病人，你猜他幾歲？ "

轉頭看，是一位很骨瘦如柴的男生。頭上不再有黑溜溜的頭髮，脸也很蒼白。在他床邊有位年輕的女生在照顧他。大概是他的女兒吧。我說他看起來像70歲的先生。我表弟搖頭說他只有四十幾歲。那 女生是他太太！@_<;

表弟說這幾天在醫院陪父親，他看到了人最怕的一面。害怕但又逃不過那一面。那就是死亡。

他說旁邊那位是患有肺癌第一期的。他只能靠氧氣筒呼吸。我看看他。一點都不像病人！他的臉紅潤紅潤的。看起來很有福氣。跟那位瘦瘦的先生比，根本天差地別呀！要不他躺在病床上，我還真的會以為他是來探望人家的。

表弟又說，另一旁的病患很愛'動手'~ 他會一直摳他眼上的傷口，鮮血常流滿臉。我在那裡兩天見識了很多次。我的媽呀，他不會痛嗎？還是他已不覺得這很痛了？表弟還說有一晚，病人把自己手上的插管拔掉，結果血從手噴出來，血流滿床和地面。護士趕緊幫他換洗，他的家人對他無可奈何。護士們真的很偉大！每天得在這麼負面的環境工作真的很不容易！讚歎他們呀！

你知道嗎？那位臉紅潤紅潤，看起來很有福氣的叔叔大前天往生了。

我姨丈第二天也告別了。其他病人的命運如何，我不能做些什麼。只能默默幫他們祈禱。願他們早日脫離苦海。

人的身體就是那麼脆弱。生老病死誰也逃不過，所以一定不能浪費此生！人生無常，好好的活著。好好的珍惜吧~ ~

願大家天天 快樂自在 ，身體健康！愛你們（怕錯過，先趕緊表白！哈哈~）

來個擁抱！

Can't stop eating!

Cooking is an easy task for my mum. She can turn anything into a yummy meal without any problem.. She is like a magician in the kitchen!

I remember when we were studying in AUS, she would make seven layers kuih, ham jim peng, tou sa pao, sticky rice and other hometown delicacies for us to eat... for she knew how much we missed them.... Mum's cooking is always the best! The food are always bursting with her love and also ingredients! haha... We always laughed that, if she were to sell them in shops, she wouldn't make any money at all... She did make to sell a few times, upon friends' requests. In the end, those 'businesses' turned into charity work haha....

Mum must be feeling inspired again.. Because when I returned home yesterday, she immediately came to the door and happily told me that she had made chai kuih, sponge cake, BBQ pork buns and white bread.. Then she started pulling everything out and put on a plate for me to eat... i felt as if I was having a buffet at home! haha..

I had to stop her from giving me too much snacks... not that I don't appreciate her kindness, but because it was dinner time.. and i saw that there were 1 pot of black bean pork soup, 1 pot of pork leg soup, omelet & vege on the table, waiting for me to finish! I finished everything mum gave me and also the omelet, vege and some pork leg and black bean pork... *burp*

This morning, I had 3 BBQ pork buns for breakfast. I also brought with me a few pieces of sponge cakes and white bread + strawberry and apricot jam for tea break... Gosh, they went soOOooo well with a cup of coffee!

Stop to fill my stomach so can continue to work hard!

It was a wonderful morning...! *la la la... *

A taste of my own memory

While on my way to meet my friend at McD, I spotted the man who gave me many wonderful memories. Then I decided to detour and went to him *sorry friend for being a bit late*

I wanted to re-live my memory. I wanted to know where he has been all these years. I also wanted to ask if he still remembers me.

I was chasing behind him under the hot sun like a stalker. When I was finally close enough to him, I yelled out from behind

'ice cream!'

Just like old times, he stopped and turned around. Yes, that's the same man who used to come to my neighbouhood to sell ice cream. He still looks the same, but much much older....

I saw the buns in his basket. Immediately I ordered a 'gu you bao ice cream' (butter bun with ice cream). Unfortunately, all he had that day was roti kosong (plain bun). Aiya! I really wanted to eat that. Since I was going to have McD later, i thought i should save some room for the McD meal.. so I switched my order to ice cream cone. That day's special was yam ice cream! YUMMMMmmm... my favourite yam! *lucky*

It's YAM !

He opened the cooler that is on his bicycle and started digging out a scoop of purple coloured ice cream. I felt like a little kid again, waiting eagerly to receive my ice cream from the ice cream man.

I told him I used to buy ice cream from him when I was a kid and that I haven't seen him for a long time and asked how come he stops coming to my neighbourhood. He didn't say anything. He just smiled.

As soon as I got my ice cream cone, I tasted it. It was yummy! I was in my own world with my childhood memories flashing by. The feeling is just as I have remembered.

I accidentally took a picture of his hand. Time has definitely left a trace. It kinda saddens me. Will I still see him next time?

岁月的痕迹

No matter what happens, he will always be part of my memory... for as long as i live....