Today is the 2nd day of Hungry Ghosts month. It's is also the day my Beloved best friend, Husky left me, forever.... Before she was neutered a month ago, I had her kept behind the gate fearing that she might get gang-raped by some unknown dogs. She loved to explore the world outside the gate and i felt guilty for not letting her do so. So, I promised her that once she was neutered, she could run any where she liked so long as she returned home safe and sound. And she always returned safe and sound except for this evening.
Today, I came home from work as usual. Husky wagged her tail and shaked her bum at the gate to welcome me. She always did that. It was such a warm and loving feeling. I had always felt happy at the sight of her - knowing that I would always have a trusted best buddy by my side even if eveyone else left me.
Normally, she would wait for me by the car and the moment I opened my car door, she would jump at me and try to lick me. I would pat her and call her name lovingly. I could feel that she missed me. And yes, I missed her too. Today, she didn't do that. She took the chance to ran and see her yellow doggie friend that always waited for her by the side of the main road. I let her be because she would come home for dinner after that, like every other time. Just when I sat down to have dinner, I heard loud cries from far. I immediately ran to the patio to take a look. I saw a few stopping cars on the main road and then they moved away. NOT MY HUSKY! Without an umbrella, I ran to the roadside as fast as I could. Mum was following behind me. God, please not let that be Husky! Please don't take away my beloved companion. To my horror, I saw Husky lying on the pedestrian walk, her friend right next to her. She had been run over by a car and had a bit of trouble breathing smoothly. Mum and I carried Husky on a piece of board and I drove as fast as I could to Ting & Lu Vet at Tabuan Jaya (FYI, City Vet which is 5 mins away my house only opens at 7pm). I was driving, crying and comforting Husky at the same time. Each time I made a turn, she squeal. She was in pain. There were no blood, no external injuries. The whole time, I prayed to God not to take Husky away from me, but deep down I knew that she would not survive the internal injuries.
Call me superstitious. There were signs that my dearest Husky would not survive the tragedy.
Sign 1
Traffic lights turned red at Batu Lintang/Simpang Tiga junction. It took forever to turn green. I wished I had a sirent like an ambulance so I could reach vet fast!
Sign 2
I was behind a stupid, inconsiderate tortoise driver on Jln Simpang Tiga. I had to flash my lights to get him/her out of right lane!
Sign 3
There was a terrible jam along Tabuan Jaya Road. There is no way I could get to the other side (where the vet is) without getting stuck in the jam for 30 mins! I parked my car at the bus stop and tried to cross the busy road with Husky in my arms and in the rain.
Sign 4
So many cars!!! How the hell to cross a road like this????
Sign 5
Vet was tied up with a dying rabbit patient.
My heart ached so badly when I saw Husky not being able to breath smoothly. She was in a lot of pain I know. I could tell. When I put her on the examination bed. I knelt down beside her to stroke her nose. She had always loved that. Husky looked into my eyes as I did that, as if trying to tell me how sorry she is for leaving me. For not being able to grow old with me. For getting into trouble again. Husky, I know. I could telling in your eyes. U didn't mean to... I'm sorry too, for not caring enough to stop you from running out in the rain.
The vet gave her two injections - one to kill the pain and one to stop the internal bleeding. I was told that Husky was in a critical condition and if she survived til tomorrow, she would live. I cried and cried, praying that she would be fine. I kept patting her at the same time to assure her that things will be fine and that she is loved and that she will be jumping up and down, playing with me and also her doggie friend, accompanying mum in the garden, chewing shoes, breaking vases, plates and pots , killing mum's orchids etc very soon Be Strong Husky. Be Strong...
After 10 mins, Husky took a really deep breath and died at 6.53pm. Right before my eyes. It was heart breaking to part with her... I can't believe that I've lost Husky, forever.... I don't have any words to describe how I feel right now. I'm still crying as I write this. Losing Husky is like losing a part of my soul. I feel so incomplete and so alone without her. Jane's eulogy on Husky makes me cry even more. I would definitely miss my Can't-hate-but-love-her-even-more Husky.
I rested Husky outside, in front of my home so she would always be in the place she loved so much - the world outside the gate. Husky, Please take care of yourself in the Doggie Heaven. Please always remember that you were loved deeply by people you loved. Please remember that you will always take up a special space in my heart. We will miss you very very much....
It feels so strange to be without Husky. I thought I heard her but I know it is just my imagination. Normally, Husky would either distract me when I use the computer or rest under the sofa behind me. It is so depressing to know that she would not be around to light up my days anymore. Just now, I walked to the main road. I saw Husky's yellow doggie friend right on the spot where Husky was found injured. Doggie must be looking for his friend, wondering when she would return to play with him again..................
What a feast....!
What a feast....!
